Giving thanks at Thanksgiving is for pussies. Giving thanks is an end of year event best shared with an optimistic glass of whiskey, a sad smile and a glad heart.
2013 was a fucked-up, horrible and astoundingly beautiful year full of bold adventures and tragic circumstance.
I guess the best question to ask is “Am I a better person than I was last year?” My answer is “I hope so.” The answer I know is true is “My divine discontent is not yet satisfied.” Which is a great thing to be able to say year after year.
I’d like to start my end of year by doing my own small Hoʻoponopono to those I let down this year. I can imagine there were a few of you out there I don’t know about and a few that I do. So, for you:
I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.
Now to the good stuff…
Thank You to my children: Grayson, Sunshine and Zephyr for being wonderful and strange. Thanks for never being normal or free of drama and craziness. You are remarkable, brilliant people and I love you as much as I can fathom.
Thank You to Denise, my heart, my love, my butter. Your love and support and general insanity is a constant reminder that life moves forward towards good things. I love you like crazy werewolves.
Thank you to Tina. Thank you for being a good mother to those mad children and keeping things together when I cannot. I can never say I’m sorry enough, but I hope to find a way someday.
Thank you to my mother who took me in when I was broken and who puts up with my hermit-like behavior.
Thank you to my nerds and to my friends, old and new. I treasure you all far more than you think.
Thanks to all the people who hired me to design wonderful things for them. I managed to spend a year doing work I wanted to do with smart and committed people. 2013 had very few times where I was sitting behind a computer wondering why I was bothering. Almost all of you paid well and on-time. There are two of you who stiffed me, you know who you are and you feel shame.
Thanks to Chicago, Nashville, Toledo, Seattle, Columbus, Grand Rapids, Sanduski, Cincinnati and Newburyport for having me visit; to Frightened Rabbit, Josh Ritter, Frank Turner, Dropkick Murphys, Social Distortion, Patti Smith and Over the Rhine for playing such good live music; to the DIA, Detroit Zoo and Cranbrook for giving me access to art and science, life is truly better with you around; and to Imperial, Perry’s Pizza and Commonwealth in Detroit and Katalina’s Cafe, zPizza, Northstar Cafe in Columbus for making food and coffee.
Thanks to the world that continues to spin.
2013 was pretty awesome and full of sadness and love, beginnings and ends. A wish for you, my friends that 2014 is going to be remarkable.
To steal a line from nerdy pop culture and sum up what this year meant for me…
“We all change. When you think about it, we’re all different people all through our lives, and that’s ok, that’s good, got to keep moving, so long as you remember all the people that you used to be. I will not forget one line of this, not one day, I swear. I will always remember when the Doctor was me. “
A smile and a toast to you all. Keep the edges wild. (It’s mine now)